Day 19- Boys in blue!

The boys came to us in blue today!! yay! well except for Bohdan's pink booties.....

Crazy part is that they were in some of the clothes I brought for the orphanage. The shirt Bohdi is wearing is NB, the onsie he is in is 3-6 months and the onsie Yuri was in, I think, was even smaller than Bohdan's. It didn't have feet in it though so it worked.

The boys playing with their favorite ball! Granma said we should have brought the other one so both boys had one but we didn't listen. Sorry :0(

Spinning with Daddy! too much fun if you can't tell.

This was at the very beginning of our visit. I was touching his face! Who knew that could be SO much fun!

So Yuri did NOT want to be held today. So Josh would lay him on the couch to chill. He suprised us when he rolled over got on his knees and made one crawling motion. This boy is going to be mobile soon. Neither boy has much energy for any activity for very long but that will soon change if I have anything to do with it! ;0)

Yuri and I play patty cake but my own version, it is "patty cake patty cake bakers man bake me a cake as fast as you can rollllllllllllllllllll it UP!! Throw the pan!!" On the roll, I rub my hands together real fast and it jiggles Yuri. He loves it! I can't even get through the first part of the song, which I sing very fast, because he will grab my clapping hands and pull them to him. I love it that he loves it!

Fish faces with Momma. He was so cute this morning. he was happy and when he saw Josh he said "dadadada" I would look at him and say "Mommma" he would look at me and blow rasberries. :0)

I was talking to him and I grabbed his head in my hands and he got still, and just had this happy look on his face. He stayed like that just looking around.

So what is worse....... Of course this a hypothetical question. I know the answer, if there is a right answer. You know the saying, is it better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all? Well if you are a person who has never loved than I would think your answer would be it is better to have never loved. If you are a person who has loved than your answer would be it is better to have loved and lost.

I thought of this often with my boys today. As many of you have said in your previous comments it will get easier once the boys see us as thier primary caregivers but for now in their eyes we don't meet any of their immediate needs. When the Nanny came to get them, Yuri was clapping and laughing and smiling to go back. Back to his safe room where he is fed and changed. He has no idea about what it feels like to be part of a family and of course that is not something you can explain. Yuri just needs to experience it and then he will know what true and unconditional love is. For now all they know is orphanage life and to them we are fun for about the first hour and then after that what good are hugs and kisses if lunch is soon. Today their lunch went by and we could smell it. The boys immeadiatley became aggitated and ready to go back.

As thier Momma, it does break my heart that they want to go back. That they, especially Yuri, are so excited about going back to the room they have always been in. But I realize for now that it is better since that is where they will be for a few more weeks. I also understand that this is normal and there will be an adjustment period when leaving their 'safe room'. It is just hard as so many of you have experienced. I am asking permission to give them a bottle during our visits to help with the transition.

Well as my friend Mel would say, only 4 more sleeps till court!! Yay! Please continue to pray for the judge, blessings, wisdom, salvation, or whatever God puts on your heart.

Happy New Year's to you all!!!