Thursday, February 20, 2014

I don't know about cancer

I always said that if I ever got cancer I would treat it naturally. I've heard, as I'm sure many of you have, of people fighting cancer naturally and winning. My question is where? and with what regimen?

So I'm diagnosed with cancer December 2012 and we start our research. We looked at the Gerson Therapy (Mexico), a natural therapy in Santa Fe, a natural doc in NY, who didn't talk much about Thyroid Cancer treatment, Gerson Plus Therapy (Mexico) and the Burzinski clinic in Houston. Bursinsky clinic couldn't help me unless I had my thyroid removed (per FDA). The Gerson Plus Therapy included all the other clinic's therapy components plus some, except the NY clinic which was based on eating protein. So the GPT seemed like the best choice at the time.

So the question is, knowing what I know now what would I do if put in the same position.  I would still have fought my cancer naturally but wouldn't have paid the Gerson Plus Therapy clinic a ridiculous sum of money to do so. Going to them has been my only regret. I'm not sure that my type of cancer can be cured naturally. I'm not sure if that type of treatment works. Maybe if you have no job, no kids, a maid, a personal servant and assistant and no family. The regimen was impossible. There was no time left for my children, my husband, to attend church, to see my friends, or to do anything! And one of their main components is "Get plenty of rest and reduce stress." REALLY? WHEN? Before we went I laid out my day to day schedule and explained our life with 4 little ones to the doc and he said he thought it was possible if I had help. Well my brother lived with us for months helping and my friend even came in every day to help with the kids and it was still overwhelming.

The regimen also requires no fat intake; no meat, no avocado, no eggs, no beans, no protien of any kind. My brain was STARVING!! I felt like I was going crazy and started to become depressed. It wasn't until we added healthy fats back into my diet that my brain regulated and started acting normally again. Needless to say last year was super tough.

In an attempt to help combat the cancer we bought a water ionizer which is supposed to increase the PH of your drinking water which in turn will increase your body's PH. The saying I believe is "cancer can't survive in an alkaline environment." I also added alkaline foods to my diet and when I first tested my PH, before the ionizer came in, I was 8.5 ph. So the water Ionizer could only make things better, right?

What I didn't realize at the time is that not all cancer reacts the same. Not all cancer feeds on sugar, so eliminating sugar won't work for all cancer types. Not all cancers die in an alkaline environment. Not all cancer responds to natural treatment.

We were monitoring my tumor size through my PCP who in turn was supposed to send the results to my Doc in Mexico. I don't know why in this information age but these two docs could not or would not communicate. When my doc here told me that my doc in Mexico would respond I would email him. He would then respond to my PCP's questions to me. I'm not a doctor. Talk to each other!!! It was frustrating to say the least. So I thought, if they communicated great if not no worries because my PCP physicians assistant would call us and read us the results of the ultrasound, right?

Around Thanksgiving last year I got a call from my PCP's assistant with the results from my latest ultrasound. She said the radiologist wrote that the cancer has spread to the lymph nodes and I need to seek medical attention immediately. What? This hit us like a train going sideways because all the other reports stated 'no change', so how could this be. We were on vacation at the time, driving through the mountains, I was able to confirm what she said but wasn't able to ask any questions before we got cut off. Ugh.

When we get back we made an appointment with an oncologist who confirmed with a CT scan that the cancer has spread to the lymnodes on the right side of my neck but hasn't spread anywhere else. Come to find out each ultrasound was showing suspicious lymph nodes but no one was reading that part of the report. They were only looking at the main tumor size and reporting that to us. sigh.

So here we are exactly two weeks after surgery. I've had my thyroid and 40 lymph nodes removed from the right side of my neck. We are working on drying up my milk supply so we can proceed with the Radioactive iodine to kill any cancerous thyroid cells that may still be present.

I don't regret fighting the cancer naturally. I would do it again to get to breast feed my baby for a year and have the chance of keeping my thyroid. I would just do it myself with coffee breaks, juicing, a healthy diet, exercise and ionized water. I'm not sure it would have cured the cancer but it would have been less stressful than the Gerson Plus Therapy.

I write this to let ya'll know what has been going on and to inform anyone else who finds themselves in my shoes. I met a lady at church who said her sister had paid the money and went to the Gerson Plus therapy clinic and is  now having chemo done because it didn't work. Has anyone out there had their cancer cured using the Gerson Plus Therapy or Gerson Therapy or any other natural or alternative therapy? please leave me a comment I'm very interested to know.

PS I know that the doc would say the therapy didn't work for us because we didn't stick to it COMPLETELY. I say again, it is humanly impossible to stick to unless you are waited on hand and foot and even then it sucks. I did it completely, no cheating, for 4 months and it was misery definitely not worth the emotional and monetary sacrifice.

Sorry this is all over the place. thanks to all of you who support us prayerfully. Thank you to our family and friends who have helped us through it all, especially my brother who put up with us for so long. And a huge special thanks to my husband, my rock, my best friend, you are amazing!!

Wednesday, September 4, 2013


Wow!! Thank you all so much for your comments and encouragement. What a blessing your words and prayers are to me. 

Some of the comments seemed sad and I couldn't figure it out until I reread my post. Gosh! I didn't mean for it to come across so gloomy. I mean hopeless was a resident in my heart a few months ago but no more.

The Lord has given me a sense of peace. I wrote it not with tears in my eyes but with a smile in my heart. Submitted to God's will. 

I still don't have the results but the pain has definitely subsided, praise The Lord and I have peace.

 I plan on updating y'all about my funny happenings and life with my babies. Love to you all, goodnight!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013


I can't do it.

I am weak.

I thought I was busy.... I had no idea.

I am completely reliant on The Lord.

This cancer has taken me to a new level of brokenness. This cancer treatment is hard with 4 lils at home. 

Oh Lord, have mercy on me, I need healing!!

I have been so stressed about this regime that I have failed. 

People tell me I'm brave. Random strangers tell me I'm strong. People act like I have something special that allows me to survive under this burden. I do.

It's someone, Jesus. My Jesus! I have lost sight. I've put more trust in my ability to follow the cancer regime than His ability to heal. I have failed and now I'm sitting here in a waiting room waiting for an ultrasound on my neck that is swollen and painful.

Oh Lord have mercy on me and heal me please!

I'm often told I should blog. I agree. I have no idea when or if anyone would read the ramblings a of a broken human but we shall see.

Sunday, May 26, 2013


Latest update: we are doing good! My tumor isn't gone or even smaller but all in all we are well! I feel good and am figuring out our new super duper hectic schedule. Danica and I are figuring out our nursing schedule on the days we have to get the boys to therapy early. My doctor said I have to de stress my life if I'm going to beat this cancer. The thought is laughable but we are trying! The bathroom has been fixed and the water damage cleaned up.

The plumber that came out to fix our shower didn't charge us to unclog it. Wow! Thank you Lord! We still have tiles missing but it's functional. Someone is coming to look at the roof, praying for good news there.

My brother went home and is now getting married to an awesome young lady!!! Yeehaw!!! I have a new helper that helps me through the week. She is wonderful and such a blessing!!!

Asher just finished preschool and is excited about his summer. I think we are going to get a membership at the YMCA and Schlitterbahn in order to increase the oxygen in my blood, stress relief and summer fun!

Praise!!!! Caius and Bohdan are WALKING! Walking!! Walking!!! Granted not in public but definitely around the house. Caius was so excited when he figured out he could walk AND carry stuff around!!

Bohdan has two more weeks in his preschool. His RAD is getting worse and he is overall an unhappy child. He has lost a pound in the last few months. We have an appointment with an endocrinologist. I'm hoping whatever is causing his small stature has something to do with his moods. He is working on learning to chew and trying new textures.

Caius is doing good and is three years old all the way, with all the glory that entails!!! He is learning to drink liquids, it is slow going but getting better. His therapist recommended an awesome cup made by Aventi, it is no spill and liquid only pours out when he tips is up. His nose/upper lip pushes the button to allow the liquid to flow. Really cool! Especially for Caius who can't use sippy cups or straws.

Danica is awesome!! I didn't know how much I would love having a baby girl. She prefers playing with her brother's matchbox cars!! She is an easy laid back baby. She gets on all fours and rocks back and forth while she watches her brothers run around. Oh how she wants to join them. Not long now!!

Thank you all for your continued prayers and support!
Prayer requests:
that my cancer will go away quickly!
For Bohdan and ALL his issues.
For wisdom regarding the boys schooling next year, we are at a loss and don't know what to do.

Monday, March 18, 2013

In the trenches...

Just a quick update and plea for prayer.

We have been home from Mexico about a month and a half and admittedly it is harder than I expected. We work from early in the morning until right at bedtime and still don't get everything done. Josh said that he looks forward to going to work so he can have a break.

Another hard part is the food. No salt = ICK!! I am to the point that I dread eating and just force it down out of necessity. The juices are yummy though and I look forward to them. Praise The Lord my brother is still here. He makes most of my juices during the week which takes well over an hour and a half each day.

Then there is the house.... The dishwasher is broken and won't turn on. We were only using one shower since the other one needed regrouting and drain help. Last week the tiles started falling off the wall in the first shower. Then tonight we noticed the carpet in the boys room is wet and growing mold under Caius' crib and bookshelf. We think a crack in the tile in the shower we use has been leaking water. Not to mention our roof is in need of repair and this last storm took off more shingles than I expected. Plus while I was gone we needed A/C maintenance and they found mold in our ducts!!! We had to put in a special thingy for that.

Things are REALLY hard right now and I'm emotionally spent. Good news is that my God is greater than all this. He WILL heal me in HIS time and HE will carry us through these trenches and valleys. Thank you all for your continued prayers.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Last day in Mexico!!

We spoke to the doctor today and he agreed to let me go home a day early! Yippee!! I get to see my sweet boys tomorrow!!
I gave myself an injection today. I only used a 1 inch needle so the poke wasn't bad. The fluid going in hurt though. I wish I knew how the nurses do it without causing any pain. Josh will do the one in the morning so he will know how also.
I got my catheter taken out today. Yikes that thing was huge!! We took a picture of it that I will post later.
Thank you all for your continued prayers and support. Now the hard part of this fight against cancer starts. Implementing this at home will take some getting used to. But it's only for 2 years so it should go by quickly Lord willing.

Thursday, February 7, 2013


I had every intention to post last night (well and eat and drink and move) but I had a bad reaction. I couldn't stand up, or move my head or open my eyes without feeling very sick, dizzy and nauseous . It sucked. Granted it only lasted about 2 hours but still.

We learned how to do injections today, scary stuff. I guess they put the whole 1.5 inch needle in my rear every morning. Yikes!! I'm gonna have to do it in the AM to myself. I'm a wee bit terrified.

I started crying today when they came to give me the Autologous vaccine. I'm such a weenie. In my own defense, they said the Coley's shot wouldn't hurt and this one would feel like a bee sting. Well, the Coley's shot hurt really bad and I couldn't use my arm for the rest of the day so this shot was terrifying!!! They iced my leg, they didn't for the others which furthered my hysteria, and then brought over a 1.5 inch needle and that is when I lost it. Josh talked me down and the doc gave me the shot. It was nothing. Praise Jesus! I didn't even feel the needle. The injection did feel a little bit like a bee sting but not bad since it was numbed. The doc said that the other doc must have hit a nerve with the other shot.

Josh and I took a long walk on the beach a few days ago in the morning and saw a baby sea lion!!! It was awesome! He actually looked sad though like he was lost or maybe that is just how sea lions look. I think it was a sea lion instead of a seal because he had ear flaps. We got within 50 feet of him. We also watched the pod of dolphins the day before for quite a while and saw 3 of them ride a wave together. Very cool!

2 more days till I get to see my boys!!!! yippee!!!