I am weak.
I thought I was busy.... I had no idea.
I am completely reliant on The Lord.
This cancer has taken me to a new level of brokenness. This cancer treatment is hard with 4 lils at home.
Oh Lord, have mercy on me, I need healing!!
I have been so stressed about this regime that I have failed.
People tell me I'm brave. Random strangers tell me I'm strong. People act like I have something special that allows me to survive under this burden. I do.
It's someone, Jesus. My Jesus! I have lost sight. I've put more trust in my ability to follow the cancer regime than His ability to heal. I have failed and now I'm sitting here in a waiting room waiting for an ultrasound on my neck that is swollen and painful.
Oh Lord have mercy on me and heal me please!
I'm often told I should blog. I agree. I have no idea when or if anyone would read the ramblings a of a broken human but we shall see.