I used to watch the popular movies of the year and be unmoved by the lack of respect for human life. I was completely desensitized to children suffering. How humiliated I feel now to know I was that way.
The change came when I read the blog allarepreciousinhissight.blogspot.com. Loraine prayed that her heart would break for what breaks our heavenly Father's heart. I thought that sounded like a great prayer. So I prayed it over and over again.
I have to admit... it hurts! It hurts to have your heart broken over and over. If it wasn't for God grace I would drown in my tears. Thank the Lord we have prayer! The are so many orphans that DESPERATELY need homes NOW!! YESTERDAY! and yet there is only a small portion of our population who are willing to read about these babies and even a smaller portion willing to help.
People think Josh and I are crazy! How are you going to do it? I just shrug and point up and say "I figure if God can raise the funds, break the barriers, answer prayers, perform miracles, then he can help me with 4 under 4." There are still the few others who even after this, shake their heads in disbelief and say that I don't understand what I'm getting into and how detrimental it will be on our other boys.
REALLY!! Really?! Well then maybe we should just call the whole thing off and let Bohdan and Yuri live the rest of their lives in cribs. Then one day my boys will ask me if we ever thought about having any other children and I'll tell them "Yes you had two brothers who we were deeply in love with but thought it would be a burden on you guys so we left them behind." Can you imagine? I would be embarrassed to say this to my children.
Whatever happens in my life I want to be able to say that I said "yes". That I was available! That I was obedient to God's will. Isn't that what He asks of us?
It was a beautiful post written by my dear bloggy friend Adeye that God used to talk to me and Josh about adoption. It hurts when people tell me, "oh I've tried to read that stuff but it is so sad I can't finish it." Thank goodness there is that little x in the right hand corner of your screen. Too bad these orphans don't have that same little x that they can click to get them out of every uncomfortable situation, or to fill their bellies when they are hungry or to get them hugged when they are lonely.
There are quite a few orphans that I have the inside scoop on. These babies need large grants to get adopted soon before they are transfered. I will update the 'orphans on our hearts' page with them.
But let us not forget about little Brady and Heath. Remember them? The great Bradini! If you haven't read that post, you need to.
Please revisit my post 'Lost Boys" and PRAY! PRAY your guts out that Brady and Heath find families. PRAY that they get grants! That the door to this institution remains open for adoption and that these children are not lost FOREVER! Join with me in my quest to raise money for them!
Spread the word about the quilt give away. A generous family has agreed to match whatever amount comes in for the quilt fundraiser and give it to the grant for the older boys (Brady and Heath :-) Lets make this count!
If you want extra blank sign up sheets let me know! Thanks for reading and hopefully for crying with me.