Monday, October 4, 2010

Need Prayer again

Hello all! Thank you for following along our road to adoption. it is comforting knowing that we aren't in this alone. I'm having a down day. I know in my heart of hearts that God WILL work everything out but as a human I am down and can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I can't get a hold of that pastor so I can tell you all the amount of our super surprise. We are about to get our USCIS approval but can't get anyone to look at our documents. Last time it took 3 weeks to get a reply. On our current fax it has been over a week and still nothing.

The big heart break came yesterday when we lost the childcare we set up months ago for when we are out of the country. I don't know what we are going to do. Our kiddos are so little and it is going to be hard for them to have both of us gone, so I hate to take them somewhere unfamiliar. Not to mention the fact that my littlest guy just had open heart surgery and I would like him to be close to his doctors.

Leaving my boys has always been the hardest part for me. I don't want to leave them but I know taking them isn't feasible. It gave me some comfort knowing that they would be here in a familiar place with there Doctor's close by and Caius could continue his therapies.

God has worked so many miracles through this whole process and I know he will work this out, I'm just blah..... Tomorrow will be better!


  1. Good Morning Dear Little Daughter of God,
    We lift you up in prayer this morning for you to see the light at the end of the tunnel. We pray for your heart to be lifted up again. We pray for a family to come forward to care for your children. The Lord knows all of this and yes He does have it all planned out, but continue to trust and have faith in Him. He has brought you this far along and He is not going to leave you behind! Trusting in the Lord with you that all things will come together soon in God Timing! Blessing to you to have a better day and enjoy the day with your little ones and rejoice in the Lord!

  2. I wish I knew someone in TX that could help with childcare, we'd help in a minute but we live in Maryland! God's got a plan though, I know He does. Praying for you and your family \0/

  3. I wish I knew what to say to you to make everything better. I read this, this morning and i have been thinking about you all day. And praying.

    I had one of those days last week, you can read about it on my blog if you want. I was seriously thinking that adopting was a bad idea, and maybe it wasn't really God who told us to. And that I am probably insane to want to add more stress to my life, etc.

    Anyway, so I know exactly how you feel. I think we will run into times when things don't exactly work out the way we wanted them to or how we expected, and that is when life gets "hard".

    Just keep pressing on. This IS a wonderful thing. Satan is trying as hard as he can to keep these precious babies from having true life, and knowing what Love is.

    I read a scripture today in Psalms 56, "...THIS I know, that God is for me."

    Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. Just trust and not think too hard about leaving your children, God will provide a way.

  4. Autumn - I'm late coming in here, our computer crashed and I missed so much! I'm so sorry that your childcare fell through but I just know you'll find someone else who will take care of your little treasures for you in your absence, everything happens for a reason.